Does that make me Different?I wear make up. Does that make me fake?I cry. Does that make me emo?I have male friends. Does that make me slutty?I smile a lot. Does that make me weird?I laugh loud. Does that make me preppy?I have anxiety. Does that make me a freak?I have Bipolar Disorder. Does that make me abnormal?I respect people. I change for me, and only me. I have a past, but I know I have a future.Does that make me different?Maybe.But at least it makes meMe.
FrostbiteNumbnessI can’t feel my toes and at first I thinkIt’s just my toes.I can cover them up.I can warm them. It spreads, like fire,Like ice.I glance away for a second, it seems, and my feet are coldPat –patThat’s funny, I didn’t feel thatMaybe I’ll cover them up tooI’ll warm them up. I’ll take a napMaybe a short rest will make it all better, warm themUp…What’s that? How long has it been?My legs… are you still mine..Why has my breath left me, short?Has everything but deserted me? What about you, are you still here?Are you still with me?Hello?And before I can say goodbye, I think my thoughts are leaving me too –
You'll Never Understand...You'll never understand...But I'm glad you don't.Because that would meanYou'd have to go through my pain.And I'd never wish thatFor you.
Dear fucked society,Dear fucked up society,Why do you take our rights?Our human rights?To who we love?To who we are.. To our image?Tell me.You force images down our throat;Images of airbrushed, false lookingpeople. You want people to lookmore skinny and cause anorexia,More along the hidden line thatyou dig under the ground likea dead forgotten body yet always thereYou show us that its not right to be gay,lesbian, bi-sexual or transgendered..And then wonder why the suicide rate isso fucking high. You cause the nightmaresand terrors of our family not accepting usour
Sleeping Beautyshe’s in love with a character whonever existed but in the labyrinth of her head:a patchwork composition of beautiful, lengthy wordsshe’d heard in her catatonic state; coma livingday in and day out, reliant on the salvationof a man made of foreign wishingand imperfection and necessity – an ignorance of the less than ideal perception of self she’d come to fear, absention stained romantic to the pointwhere daydreams were a standard for survival(real living is for the purposeful of heart,he loves her in her sleep)
I don't fight fair...Cut, bruised, scraped, forgotten. These things I have all been at least once in my life. But ithasn't made me stronger, just more determined in my fight to live another day. I know the ways of my attackers, studied their movements, learned their tricks and gleamed their true motives. I have seen their weaknesses, their faults, theirs flaws and I have keptthem close to me, ready for use when the next time we meet.They are cautious of me, they have weary from my adaptive ways, knowing that I can fall onlyso many times. They are scared for I have the key to their defeat; not by sane ways, but bythe ways they fear to tread.One look, one stare, one gesture and they will run in fear for the truth is upon them: "I won't live restrained anymore.""I have seen your errors an played on them like strings on a violin. Moved you to place were Imake the rules. Put you on display for all to see what you have done, and what will be done." You ha
UneditedWe cry.We scream.We fight for our dream.We scream.We cry.We're just waiting to die.The same emotionswith a different drive.Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.The same in one way,different in anotherbrother and sister, sister and brother.So close in feeling,so different in the end.Falling apart, or finally on the mend?Which am I?Will I ever know?Fighting to stay or ready to go?Maybe I'm both,in some impossible way.Emotions oddly mixed everyday.Wouldn't surprise.I'm such a freak.Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"
Happily AloneHonesty,She does not have,Personalities,She has many of them.A million shields,a million personalities,She's always changing, to fit every person around her.If one were to ask why,she would answer with,I will never reveal my weaknesses, because she's evil.She hates everyone,stupider than her is barely tolerable, smarter than her is too scary, She hates it all.She leaves the world behind,To one she has dreamt of,No color, nobody else.Then, she will smile,why,because she is truly happy alone.She is not evil,She does not hate you, She is not dishonest,She simply wants to be alone.
lifelinesI fear the sound of sparrowsand the density of leavesagainst dew-muffled blades of grass,and I'm drowningin the sky.My skin has learned howto peel itself off without causing a commotion in my marrows or even show the slightest hintof pain,and my heart has learned howto hush the stars in their wakeand keep it all a secret.There's a sea in my mouthand I can't swim. There are lifelines cast like these and it will all end with the same tragedy.
the carbon footprint of an arsonistyour crystal promise rings drip off your glacialfingers into globalnothings. the geodesicdome you used to live inis a hell you keepclean-shaven and concentric,spiraling away from you,wrapping your unbornchildren up in paper goblets.for minimum wage, any geryonwould cling to the terza rimainkblots on yourcollarbones, his spongy molarsdiving into your rightangles, his familiar laughskilling your skin withshivering cuddles and youshudder, being self-diagnosedat center of the universe,your hair a nest of radiowaves, the one cosmicprinciple drumming on the ancientheart of mystery.but amateur porn alwaysmade you cry
of seafoam thronesFrom Atlas’ hands she wept to me,atop Africas and South Atlantics;this is one situation unaffected byember eyes and windy lashes(it has no anatomy).You are sparrows strandedin tiny crevices and cliffside love,though you rebuke flightin the fear of chipping feathers. So what do you do?You reach for my soul,coveting flight with shakingdainty arms…and perhaps I’ll let you:With flytrap lips and glass shaped hips…you are unfit for anything butsight.(But beauty isn’t everything)
The WaitingBones hang from treesHollow windchimes rattlingIn the sullen breezeDark clouds make noonday duskRusted buttons on threadbare coatsSorrow drips like rain(From the fingertips of this dead-rose day)Hoofprints kill the grassWhere the dark horse stepsThe rider unsmilingThe tired and ill amble aboutCattle awaiting the shoulder tapTo sleep, but not to dream(To become whatever the second birth dictates)
We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do. It was a whirl wind romance,A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to. We built a house without foundationsAnd now we’re falling down,Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see. There was no fire to start with,Just two broken things, the world had left behind.The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.We never stood a chance or so
Ashes on the SandWe put you ina crystal boxsmall enough for meto hold in myhands(and that thought gives mechill bumps)The tide was highwhere we took youand I remember thinkinghow pointless it was(you were just going to washup on the shore)Everyone was quietand some people criedand as you were tossedout to sea like somany grains of sandI thought how muchI missed you(Now I think how muchI hate youfor leaving)
A Charmed LifeDoll-faced men and sinkholes, ancient tombstonesLeaves piled ankle-deep, falling downOld wells, old graves, old friends lostPirate adventures in Neverland Don't go into that barnPonchoboy and Rangergirl rise from the ashesFrom the cold river, from afarRemember before they were born, how theyHeld hands and jumped into the worldDon't go into that schoolLadybugs, pennies, notes from the dead sun eclipseScrape the inside of your skull for cluesAll the old dreams are still there, petrifiedYou are a rock of ages gibberingDon't go into that factory
Meant For TwoJealousy casted in my chestset in the drunkenly slurred insecuritiesas I watch in distance glowing with afroth filled mouth and a tight heart.I want my fists in her face,indents of her falseness, tearing awayher mask that leads in disregard to a love blooming, meant for two.
Shipments of LoveCellophane tucks us tight in packagesof love, the type that constrain us,and the type that still allows us to break.I slice box cutters into taped lipstrying their best to stay away from qualm fingersdusting away at the insignificant andrinsing the coffee stained barriers.I touch a semblance of you,words elegant on paper that knownot of their sentimental meaning,and I suckle like a child,necessitating to the closeness.
Your HandsYour obscure smile is hidden beneathyour hands, the ones that I want to hold asI swing my arms and my body sauntersto the places that call me,and the places that I call mine.
Where Were You?Glass impulse clattered onwith pounding thumps of dry throated screams fromemotions succumb to failure;I search for your truths.Demonic darkness overpoweringeach string trap I wovein warning and I am herewith colluded tears over dry frozen cheeks of hatred.I seek knives and pillspressured back in past doorssealed shut with latches undone,but no one hears the unhealed scarsrip apart in a gust.
Unspeak These WordsI can't find the voice to speakor type the letters dangling off cliffs of wonderings of past livesand secret loves of what only I could imagine with these silentvowels and intrinsic thoughts.Perhaps if half-rotted weathertittered in correct patterns motioningto truth in forecasts, then maybe,I could tell you the words your soul craves to burn away all doubt.
Her WarmthSmoke fills my empty lungs andHer silent voice fills my dying mind.I want to cradle our disaster in a casketAnd bury it with my broken piecesShe saw me fall into.But I lie about want and needAnd fall into words we whispered In self-awakeningAs she still heals me with her warmth.